You would never think. . .

God amazes me everyday in lots of different ways. He blesses me with a loving husband, who understands even the slightest look on my face, and can predict my behavior or reaction before I even have one. He blessed me with a wonderful son, Russell, who makes me laugh everyday, and who has the biggest heart a two year old can have. Now He has blessed me again with a little boy who will fill my world with love and laughter. You would never think that one person could have so many things to be thankful for. It is almost like my heart will burst with so much love and happiness. I know it sounds cheesy, but I just never imagined that I could feel this way over such a little person.

Russell seems to be adjusting "normally". He is having a hard time understanding why mommy can't play like normal, but he really likes being my "big boy helper". He is acting out a little--like wanting to be held more and wanting more attention, but he isn't being mean or hateful towards Wilson. I am so proud of Russell for being able to love his little brother. As a mother it is one of my biggest fears that Russell wouldn't be able to adjust, or that he would be so unhappy, but so far so good. We (Justin and I) had a discussion last night that we need to set aside special Mommy and Daddy time with just Russell so he understands that he is still just as special as always.

Things are great here. I am feel pretty good. I didn't realize that my decision to bottle feed would be this painful. The doctor tells me it should only last a week. I hope she is right.

He has arrived

Just a quick message to let everyone know that Wilson has arrived, and he is healthy and happy. We went in Wednesday July 25th for the c-section, and he was born at 7:54 am. He weighed in at 9 lbs even and measured 21 inches long. He has a head full of dark hair (which "explains" the horrible heart burn I was having). We got home today and are trying to take it easy. Thanks for all of the prayers and well wishes. I am going to add a pic. and will update with all of the exciting news at a later date. I am in some serious need of pain meds and some sleep.

Starting to get REALLY nervous

Okay, so I go to get my blood work done in about an hour. I didn't sleep well last night thinking and rethinking and replanning everything I could imagine. I am so excited to see Wilson and find out if he looks like Russell. I bet they will have the same nose. I will be out of commission for about 4 or 5 days, but I promise to update as soon as I can sit up and type. Say a little prayer for all of us tomorrow at about noon.

Only ONE more day

Okay, so today was "Mommy and Me" day for Russell and myself. We had a great day (it isn't over yet). We went up to my school for just a little bit, to drop off some supplies that have been taking up serious room in the van, and he found my stash of candy. He (being that he gets to do ANYTHING today) had a sucker at 9:30 am. If you know me that is SOOOOO unheard of. Next we went off to my favorite place on earth (do you hear the sarcasm), CHUCK E. CHEESE. Thankfully, Russell was not interested in eating the pizza. We (and really I mean him) played games for 2 hours. It was so much fun. He really didn't want to leave, but I baited him with french fries. Next, it was off to Chick-fil-a. I decided against going in because it was high noon. The playground in that place is a panic attack waiting to happen. Anyhow, we drove thru and ate at home. Of course since it is RUSSELL'S DAY he was allowed to watch any show while he ate. BLUES CLUES ,BLUES CLUES was all I heard. Needless to say, after Blue was done, we had nap time. Yes, I did sleep also. Not quite as long as him, he is actually still asleep.

Tomorrow Grandmother and Grand-daddy-o will be here. I go in for my bloodwork. I am getting a little nervous. Not really for the c-section, although it is major surgery. I am more nervous about Russell and his reaction to the baby. He is going to have a crash course in sharing everything including "My mommy", "My daddy", "Mudder", and "Dad-o" right off the bat. I am a little worried how he will react to me not being able to really play for a while. I am worried about how he will react to this little being screaming and crying and taking up so much of my time. I guess a lot of moms have felt this same way. I know it will work itself out, but it is starting to consume my thoughts in these last couple of days.

Wednesday will be here before I know it. I am really excited to see this little guy. He is so loved already. It always amazes me how many people come out when a baby is born. I have tried to spread the word that Wednesday night is family only. I hope that doesn't sound rude. It is just that I will look horrible and probably not feel all that good either. Not to mention we will need that adjustment period I was talking about. I totally don't mind if everyone wants to join us on Thursday. Just to remind everyone, I will be in the hospital for 4 days--yes 4 days---so feel free to visit as much and as often as you would like.

Testing out something new

Just thought I would test this out before I start the serious posting. I am hoping this will be a place that I can keep everyone updated on our little family. I titled the blog Wilson James only because I am sure he will consume most of the news. Anyhow, this is going to be interesting to say the least. Hopefully it will be better than the "journal" I started for him and haven't written in since February.